More Words Forward

So, I’m… Where am I? What am I doing? Why am I doing it? The fuck is my deal?

Who knows anymore? A few people care. I know well enough as soon as I stop caring, I’m done for. Better pull my ship together so I can do someone proud somehow.

There’s some melodrama. You know, cause drama sells… Keeps things interesting… Or some shit.

One more day of work and I’m off for about three weeks of vacation. I’m hanging a lot of hopes on this vacation. Let’s go down the list, shall we?

I will need to finish up this semester’s finals. The house will be repaired and cleaned. Gonna road trip back east and check on family. Gonna art e’ry day! Going to stop off in old stomping grounds, drink in nostalgia, and take pictures. Go on hikes and revel in the greenery. Gonna smoke pot, nip on the local wine. And somehow, find time to be the laziest mofo you ever did see.

Can it be done? Really? All of it? Sources point to, honestly, doubtful. But these ambitions sure do get me through the tough as nails workdays. And the dreams lull me into a place of peace, so I’m not about to dispense with those.

I will do as I always do and play it by ear. Improv my way through each day and be sure to savor every moment outside of drudgery. I will recharge. I will endure.

Maybe, time permitting, I’ll have enough time to scribble up an escape plan. I’ll make for the coast, refurb a boat, and make my getaway a la Shawshank style.

2 Comments on “More Words Forward

  1. you know you can make a list of what you want to do each day…and maybe fit it all those things you want to do… 😛 lol or fly by the seat of your pants and see what happens. both work. the key is not feeling badly when things don’t go the way you think you want them too… HAHA I hope you have a great vacation no matter the “doings”. you have earned it and may you be ever more grounded when you go back to real life.

    • Aw, thanks for the pointers and well wishes. I have a strong feeling I will make the best of the vacay no matter what. The whole point being to escape the routine and rejuvenate. If it’s the perfect vacation, the return will come with improvements to the routine! 😀 Anywho, always nice to hear from you. Hope your side of the world is good.

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