‘Nother Mornin’

Oh, I know I’m late again. Lemme tell you why and let’s see if it’s excusable. So big math test yesterday worth a hefty chunk of my overall grade hs been a looming figure. Add to it homework, homework I expect to take just a couple of hours instead eating eight. My week has been a little bucket of stress. Yesterday, took the test, did fine, but when I came to sit, all I wanted to do was decompress. And that’s what I did, sat and unfurled.

Which brings us round to today. I’m feeling better and with all the week’s heavy chores done. The next couple of days will be light lifting. The biggest challenge being time management, don’t underestimate responsibilities while overestimating time to jack around. I’ll say something more about that Monday-ish.

So dockets and things, whats on them? More homework. No surprises. Grandma needs some help with things. She’s been harassed by some aggressive spam calls lately, gonna change phone numbers and see if that helps. The biggest benefit of doing so is, not so much the peace that comes with the change, but her having to call everyone in her phone book to update them about the number. Betcha, while she’s at it, she’ll catch up with these people, too. I worry sometimes about her morale and things like reconnecting with old buddies and gossiping seems to brighten her up for weeks at a time. So, grandma gets peace and an excuse to keep her social and happy? Sure, I’ll contribute to that.

Next up, my own social bits. For the most part, I enjoy the social interactions of schooling. You know, excepting having a group foisted upon me. I still haven’t found a peace with mention group, by the by. Upon reflection, my old man perspective versus their kiddo ages probably attributes to the overall chasm. They all see it as innocent sin. Me, being a million years old, strung out from the healthcare environment, and having PTSD from working alongside groups where the economy of effort is so jank I could puke. I get the sense I’m overreacting some. I’ll try to lighten up, maybe. Practice humility.

Anywho, social stuff. I just wanted to make a quick note about the instructor I found who’s about my age and coming from the opposite direction. He’s been secure working in an industry for decades. He’s well payed. Stability and money aren’t his problems; it’s loneliness. His whole shtick behind being a professor is not to teach but to work on social skills and to be more exposed to people. And I think that’s awesome for him.

Me, comparing myself as I do, because, you know, narcissism. I’ve just about had it with small talk, customer care, and the people who will waste your time for oh so many reasons. I’m moving away from the small talk needed to, you know, keep the peace ‘tween customers and coworkers. Its necessary to have clever conflict management when y’all gotta see each other everyday or just to get through the day. But, I feel like I’ve had enough of it. I’d like a little more stability and money in my life and I’m willing to trade a couple of points in customer care to get it.

Blathering aside, I just thought that dichotomy was an interesting one. Seems like we all got our opposites, and we all revolve around finding a balance in out lives.

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