Matchwork Patchwork

Humpty

These titles display my recent forays into poetry. I am grinding hard. Wordsmithing is like an intensive game of solitaire. Get the idea, forge sentence structure, be mindful of rhythm, and rhyme, yeah, I can see why this is a respectable thing.

I’m pulling the old act together. Doubling down on meditation and exercise, oh, and time outside the house in the park or wilderness areas. The sun and fresh air are really delightful and conducive. However I do notice myself being distracted more by the birds and squirrels. Meh, fair trade.

This covid business is still a very real deal where I am. The hospital is still under lockdown. Tensions are still there, but I swear, fatigue has ebbed into the panick. People are tired of being overly clenched. It still sucks, but a general malaise more so than a panick. You can feel the desire to get back to normal.

Art is good. Feels good to get so much done. But I find I really need to keep on that mindful balance stuff. You know, the one where burnout is avoided. This business stuff is tough. Sometimes I wonder if I’m forcing things versus finding a better way. Other times, I’m certain I got the right formula. The polar dissonance is dizzying.

I swear I gotta make an artists support group or something. All the psychological chaos is exhausting. A little place for comfort and like minded company sounds nice.

Valued Input


Trick Fairy

This post was supposed to post yesterday. I guess we’ll just post this post today

I just had a long heartfelt chat with a fan of the books. The input I receive as a business and an artist is invaluable. And on a personal level, it makes it feel like what I’m doing has meaning. That deeper connection, it feels oh so good. That feeling is way too rare, missing in everyday life, found in the occasional stranger visa vi a creative process.

I don’t get a lot. Not nearly enough. But when I do get it, it affirms what I’m doing is right. Or wrong! Either way, it gives me a way point from which to orient and plan my next move. And that is a huge deal. All those comment cards and a requests from businesses to let them know how they’re doing, those efforts are made for good reason. We wanna keep in touch with yall. We’re hungry to know whether or not we are doing a good job. Our survival is dependant on it.

So, please don’t be shy about sharing your opinions if you have them.

Up next, I’m looking at the work involved in the book. Its a lot. A weird idea came up about writing a smaller simpler book as an in-between whilst I work on the main book. I can’t tell if its me being overly hungry for new projects, me wanting to prove to people I’m working on something, or me just having a dry run for design and layout process. Probably all three. Maybe even overcompensation for not feeling like I’m working hard enough. How likely is it? I honestly don’t know. Might as well try and see.

As for morale. I feel great and I’m ready to get things done. Exercise and meditation are back on point. Depression and anxiety levels are ebbing. In case it didn’t show here, the last few week have been yuck. Now though, now I’m feeling like I woke up. I’m fresh and raring to go.

So let’s go. Let’s get stuff done while the mood is here.

Blurred Vision

Doodle

It seems way to easy, especially in this climate, to get overwhelmed by distractions. All these protests and the political fallout. The covid panic is still in full swing, you have people from both sides fighting for what’s best, people nervous about the economy going from recession to full blown depression. Not to mention every person out there trying to make ends meet and struggle through an already cluttered life.

This is me trying to focus past the miasma. The past few weeks have been distracting to everyone, I’m sure. So what can we do in the midst of the chaos? I guess find a little piece that is ours and practice some control on what’s important.

So what’s important to you that you can control?

Me, I guess, is to take personal inventory. I’m trying to create a startup at the shittiest of times. Let’s amend that to: I’m creating a start up. I am feeling stretched too thin trying to do everything myself. Let’s amend that one to: what are the necessities? This is going to take an enormous amount of effort and time. Let’s turn that into: one step at a time, one day at a time. Is any of this endeavor even worth it? Let’s tweak that to: even if the destination is horseshit; that fact that I have myself together and that I am trying supercedes the importance of the destination.

This is doable. It’s all very doable.

Given the world in the worst of times or best of times, these are some pretty reasonable guidelines. Focus on what you can, endure what you can’t, be vigilant on discerning the difference,, and work towards something meaningful.

Ok, I’m in.

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