I nearly forgot today was Monday, post day. Heres a post in all it’s rushed typo filled glory.

Quit my job. All the way back in August. Stopped playing the vidya-games back in January. Finished half of schooling in December, well on my way to finishing with a degree.

I’m clocking in at 40… mrm, billion-ish years old. I’m at a point where, I really do have to make the most of time left. You know, presuming there’s time left.

The skills I’ve accrued from the job, the games, the school did come with its pluses. For the job, customer service skills, deescalation and conflict resolution skills, . . . how to wrestle a patient so they can’t hurt a nurse, themselves, or you. Games about recreating, finding a meditative mindset, exploring others’ creative expressions. Academia taught me about over committing, under committing. About how you need to find that sweet spot between strung out straight A’s and mindlessly spinning tires. Also, direction. Need a trajectory.

All that said, and respects paid. Fuck my old job. Talk about being being overworked, underpaid, and under appreciated. Management probably couldn’t mention anything about how often the nurses were abused by patients for fear of acknowledgement and after acknowledgement, retribution. Fuck off games, I’ve always always hated my dependence on you. Thank you for your service, I finally get why I needed you all those times, but you have eaten enough of my life. Academia, guess who’s can fuck off, too?! Your bullshit costs, text book scams, and lessons in subjugation. Want that A and teachers favor? Dedicate time into this busywork. No, thank you. I’ll content myself with a B and peace of mind.

Essentially, I’m hacking out those skills which are not earning their worth in my life. Admittedly, its been disorienting. Suddenly there is a heap of time on my hands. Writing here and art explorations have been reinitialized, the goal, to give me the creativity and meditative state video-games once did. Since work, social life has been wanting. Social life needs rebuilding. Academic pursuits, among the roles you’re filling, that falls under your umbrella. Work, lets separate you up into tolerable bites. One part money and stability, one part artistic endeavors. Then, finally, we’ll have some balance.