Things I can Control

I’ve been scared.

God damn it. I’ve done this before. And I’ve flaked and fucked up so many times. How many times have I started doing the arts then overextend, get burnt out, bored, whatever . . . and stopped. So when I tell you my reluctance to restart this thing, precedent has a lot to do with it. I don’t want to be THAT guy who’s unreliable. Even now, I don’t trust myself.

So here I am restarting this thing anyway. . . Again.

Since the last post way back in the day, I’ve been keeping up with writing here. I have a bunch of unpublished entries. The drawings, I took inventory last night, I’m impressed with both quality and quantity. The skills are still there and being flexed now and again. Not as honestly as I could or should but yeah, no severe neglect. The thing I haven’t been keeping on top of is the sharing.

There’s a thing inside of me that is so reluctant to self promote.

Do I bore the crap out of you with my winging about it. Lol, no. That’ll come soon enough. Believe you me. Instead how about we keep it small and I go for consistency. What if I just posted here a couple a times a week. A pic, a blog entry, something just to build confidence and work towards getting my hairy butt out there.

Here’s to cautious optimism.

3 Comments on “Things I can Control

  1. Was thinking about you the other day wondering how it was going. 🙂

  2. You do know you are human right? Fear is a part of life. Lean into it. What really is the root of that fear? Those that fail are those that give up… 🙂

    • Hi, Rachael. Things really aren’t so bad. Tallying those blessings alongside curses has always been an issue. Luckily I’m getting better at counting them blessings.

      As always, hope you and yours are in good sorts and thriving. lotsa warm thoughts

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