Third

Yeah, second post in a day. Pretty crazy, right? I’m a special kind of nuts. Or just nuts. Or just special.

I’m trying to augment my behavior. My life right now consists of mindlessly surfing the internet, occasionally going out to help out grandma, and abating boredom. You see, I have too much free time on my hands. No job, no social life, and no real prospects. I’m working to change two of those. The jobs and prospects part. Writing this here blog, this is the prospects part. Looking for work I have been doing diligently for the past week. In case you’re wondering, looking for work is the jobs part. So with jobs searched and the future there still barren, I turn here. At least I can control how much and how well I do at this.

I am not allowing myself the empty calories I usually indulge myself in when on the computer. Limited flash games, news, and trivial surfing. Consider this a cyber diet. I’ve done these before and all with the grace of a poor girl suffering from bulimia. The binges are gross; the purges worse. Is this purge mode? Not sure. Comforted by that uncertainty, too. I’ll just do the best I can with what I have.

So the longer plan thus far is just to do these two things, write and jobs, every week day for an extended period. When I get a job, undoubtedly things will change in that regard. Writing. I’ll just have to keep plugging away at that. I’ll look for something significant for myself in there. Something I can redirect others to when they wonder who and what the fuck I’m about.

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